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My life is perfect. I’m used to getting what I want. My mother buys me everything I need or could ever want. Designers from Cirika have come for her advice, and they often give off heavy “donations” all in my size. They fawn, throw themselves over her feet, and gush whenever she comes in the room. Sometimes, they invited her to the biggest Art and Fashion conventions, all the way in Tanosia where even the Casters speak highly of. My daddy, being a bulky, uninteresting man from Dakaos, could care less what business trips my mom goes to. As long as the dough keeps comin’, he says.

It is only appropriate he would call currency dough. He has oddities in his phrases like that, always mentioning food when he’s not shoving it down his pouchy cheeks. I cannot stand when my mom goes away for extended periods of time, but I deal.  I marvel in the fact that Cadefalls has become my home during the school times. Like my mom, I strive to be successful. It’s obvious that I get my way. I take what I deserve, because that is the way of the world. Nothing is going to fall into your hands just because you demand it. My mom always told me, Jewel, hon, you gotta work your ass off. Look at me. I’m a human and I get plenty of coin to satisfy your daddy’s gluttonous ways.  We always get what we want darling, and to think that playing by the rules or nicely is going to get what you really want, is stupid. People walk all over you if you give them the chance.

I agree with her. So when I went to Cadefalls Academy, I found that it was very different from my elementary and middle schools. I went to both private and public, and despite the curriculum and teachers, the kids didn’t change. These…Peridains as they said were something else. Here, their culture was dominant. Even in Cirika, a predominantly human city of wealth and success adhered to the self-centered motto of only caring for yourself and the close few. Peridains, and even the human Casters, all believed in compassion, tolerance and acceptance for others, and really believed them. I’m not saying every single student was a kiss-up, but in general they were nice, polite, and sincere. It threw me off, but I was able to tag with a few people that I could call friends.

It wasn’t until he came that things changed.  I found him utterly desirable.  But he always spent time with one of my friends, Izzy. She was a great friend, but suddenly things changed. She ditched us to spend time with the new kid, making such lame excuses I wondered if she stopped caring about our circle anymore.  Aliece always seemed worried and hurt by it, and I could tell that Chi or Ryan got confused, but eventually we got used to her consistently leaving. It began to remind me of my mom’s words. She wanted things for herself, she wanted some new guy—maybe because he was popular, or good-looking, but whatever the reason, it felt like it was unforgiveable.

By the time I started attending the group Elemental Union, my anger and jealousy turned to focus on harnessing my feelings. Equality, having a pack of tight-knit Casters whatever race or gender, could learn through all Elements. I didn’t think it was possible. But the dreams the leader spoke of was like the choice between my best platforms or some knock off flats. This was my new goal. I was tired of trying to do things the patient and kind way. All that got me was friends who betrayed me and people who didn’t care. I was meant to shine. I was a nobody here. I wanted to be popular, recognized.  And Nuka said all things would be possible not by false hopes, but by the conviction of our own perseverance of actions.

I knew what I wanted. So when I sent my monthly letters in back home, I wrote with relish and confidence that had been sucked out of me since going here. I was taking power, and I was going to rule it. Mom wrote back, pleased I had finally found my real calling. People need to shine, and you’ve got the motivation to control it she told me. At first, it was nice being around the people who went to the Union meetings. But then I started noticing something the more and more I had others watching and being around me. They were jealous of my better outfits, my knowledge of well known upper-class, and a snappy response at any teacher or student that didn’t give me the respect I wanted.

I was watched with new eyes, jealous, envious eyes. And I couldn’t love it more.  Sometimes just wearing something for the shock-value gave me a thrill that started from between my shoulder blades and moved upward to the tip of my neck. Bright, blinding colors, different nail polish, neon kitten heels; I had a knack for displaying something strange and courageous.  But whenever KD and his little shadow Izzy walked in the room, everyone gushed on how mystifying and striking he was; an obvious outsider that commanded a quiet attention that my mother would get. It was a sense the crowd seemed to get, that this person whom they were magnetized too was important. I wanted to be that kind of person. He had natural talent. My mother did as well.

Since I was my mother’s daughter, shouldn’t I too inherit this? But I continued to buy and use the status of my mother to get more designers to tailor to my interests, and they realized this was a smart move when many Cadefall students would leave store shelves empty after the new product came in. I worked hard to get this high status at the Academy. I wouldn’t let Izzy just get what she wanted that easily. She left us, and then tried to leech off of the new student. KD of course never wanted or seemed to mind the attention. He wasn’t polite about it, which made girls gossip intensely over the “bad boy” attitude, but I wanted that for myself.  Let the girls dream. I would be the one to win him over.

I invited him over to my extensive birthday party, commemorating in the most spectacular ways that outshined many local celebrations. It was my perfect opportunity to finally get a chance to be with him when his little traitor shadow wasn’t following. Before giving the invitation personally to him (I sent messengers since I was obviously too busy to deliver to half the student population) I had eavesdropped a conversation he had with his roommate where he complained and ranted about Izzy. Feeling hope, I gave him my best winning smile when he agreed to attend almost instantly. He was my escort, but while we were behind the huge wooden doors that would admit us to the dancing room where my party was being held, he expressed doubt and hesitation.

“I’m not meant for this stuff. I guess I was just agreeing in haste and I was a bit angry at the time,” he confessed in a quiet, mildly embarrassed voice. “Sorry Jewel but maybe I should—“

“Go?”I finished for him just as calm and controlled. Inwardly I was writhing in anger. No! He could not upstage me like this. I worked hard. He’s thinking about her. I see how his eyes are growing soft. “Please don’t KD. Don’t think about her. What has she done? Yelled at you? Put doubts, made you feel like it was your fault?” I chanced a few guesses, remembering how she gave half-hearted excuses.

I could tell my words hit his heart. Blazing emerald orbs made me flinch, but he sighed and nodded. He grabbed my hand and we entered. This was royalty; this was the life of the rich and well off! My mother gave me material items, but she could not earn the people to admire and envy at the items I possessed.  Orchestra music especially brought from Tanosia, playing in the corner, a large adorning ice sculpture with decorations to help the cool winter theme. Servants, better known as Penguins, would run with their black and white tailored suits and sleek manners rushed around the invited guests and gate-crashers alike. There were many, and I made no attempt to stop them. They wished to see a young empress in the making, let them. In fact, I asked the Penguins to write down the gate-crasher’s names so I could send them thank you notes and encourage them to come more often with as many friends as they could.

My new “girlfriends” and suitors who tried to persuade they were “The One” for me all simpered and showered me with compliments how I had outdone myself. Catching KD as my date was a worthy choice, and I did not disappoint. I asked KD to show some of his more outlandish techniques, since he was much more different than us. His show entertained them, and they begged me to let them meet him. I was the most influential girl at the school now. There was no doubt who would rule as top student.

I sighted Izzy and my old friends who once could be called nothing but mediocre. How far I had climbed from the bottom! Out of the tiny niche we had, only Aliece and I had become somebodies. These people were over-glanced, not even worthy of a passerby glance. Izzy looked as miserable as I’ve ever seen her, with dark circles under her eyes and despite her attempt at dressing up, did a poor job at it. How could she be fine coming into public looking like that?

I exchanged a few vicious words with her, nudging the knife a bit deeper to even out the odds just a bit more. She deserved all the pain and confusion she gave us ten times that amount. Steal their hearts after they’ve broken yours, confuse their minds after hurting yours my mom had advised in one of the letters that  she sent to me.  I enjoyed their angry, jealous looks. They wanted to be me; they should have chose to treat me the right way if they wanted to go in a better direction like I was going to.  

It felt good to extract revenge, and after KD looked guilty by his interaction with Izzy. She finally wimped out and burst out running away, Chi said something angry at us which only made me laugh. How could I be at fault for their failure at recognizing this was a great new year for Casters now we had structure similar to our old human educational systems? There was always a high class, and there would always be those trailing listlessly behind it. It was how the world worked. Even for the Peridains, although they probably never would admit it; with all their peace, kindness and acceptance for all speeches they went on about.

I dragged KD to the gardens after my power display over his former follower. I giggled in a higher pitch that was not my own, as he allowed his hand to be held. I gave a bit more showing off as we went, but I could see that he was not enjoying it as much as the applause he received when he was Fire Casting.  We finally arrived in a secluded area away from kissing and lustful couples tangled in the bushes and miniature glade we had planted around here.

“KD I hate to be forward, but why do you have such a mysterious front to everyone? What do you have to hide?” I asked, sensing the mood for talking was leaving him. “Tell me your secrets, you have nothing to fear from me,” I whispered, leaning into his chest. My nails grazed his shirt, feeling the warm chest covered by cloth. He smelled enticing, and he seemed to shudder with the unexpected touch.

“When we have secrets we want to hide we don’t tell them to others,” he said in a low voice.

I gave another tinkling laugh. “Oh but surely, you can, KD. Surely you can! You are jesting,” I smiled at him, flipping my styled hair carelessly behind my shoulder.  But I saw the guilt easily displayed across his face, and my mood switched rapidly like out of season tees going to clearance.

“You said she was always bothering you! Always insulting you, and now that you’ve just argued with her, you feel sorry?” my tone flared in anger.

“It’s just that…I didn’t think she would come here. To your party, I mean. You said that she wasn’t going to be invited. Jewel, you know when people are angry we say things we don’t mean.  Besides, I thought you were friends?  You don’t even feel bad at all what you said?” he disagreed with a slight stiffness in his voice.

“Feel bad?” I was starting to lose my careful cool demeanor. “Well…of course. But she can’t learn if she’s not hurt by the real truth. Right?” I breathed in a more pleading way.  “I’m stronger though, because I have to pretend to be okay. Even harder than you, because I’ve been her friend for so long! If only she knew how the rest of her friends felt that she’s left behind,” I explained soothingly.

KD seemed to be battling between two different decisions, and in his doubt, I continued to wheedle out any information as to why Izzy was so important and what he was hiding to inform the Union.  Underneath all the bitterness and jealousy, I did want to be the one he wanted to defend and protect. His body was desirable, and I couldn’t be satisfied with the other human and Peridains that drooled all over me.  

“KD, can’t you trust me? All I’ve ever done is try to help you. Try to think of what harm she’s caused you. I know that Izzy doesn’t appreciate half as much as she should with the friendship she has with you. You both are so close and I rarely see you ever apart,” I half-sighed and half-scowled at this statement, recognizing how close to the edge of desperate I was. “I’m here to help you KD,” I said, leaning closer into him.

I could smell his breath, smelling faintly of freshly crushed mint, as if he made the effort to mask a previous odor before coming.  My hands wrapped around to the back of his neck, and I battered my eyelashes in the most professional way that designers always did when trying to flatter my mom. He seemed stunned by this action, gazing at me like a frozen deer.

I remembered the same words that I told to Neddy the night I convinced him to come with me. “Let me help you,” I whispered as I touched his lips with mine.

“Ouch!” a familiar cry rent out from the rose bushes.  I tried to clutch KD closer, but as I moved to him he sprung away.

“Who’s there?” I demanded.  All I got for my question was rustling, and I saw a bird flying away. I wasn’t sure who made the noise, but it was probably another couple that got too close to the thorns.  I saw KD’s nostrils flare and an emotion almost like outrage cross his face.

“Well, it was probably just some stupid kids kissing, let’s go inside KD. I have the cake and a birthday wish I would love to see come true,” I winked at him suggestively.
He didn’t seem to get my hint as he continued to scan the bushes for some kind of enemy.
“Oh, yeah, I’ll go...Just go without me for a few seconds, I will be right there,” he responded to me, not even looking.

I shrugged, leaving him alone to his peculiar behavior. As I came back in, everyone cheered as I played the perfect hostess in leading to our dining hall.  Preserved scallops, grilled chicken, pasta smothered in alfredo sauce, roasted pheasant; there was many options for my multitude of guests. My mom speculated I would have roughly a hundred more guests than the planned two hundred invitations due to the sneaking lower class that probably didn’t afford the money to dress up nice. The cake when presented was five icing-glazed layers, and was appreciated by everyone who ate a slice. By the time KD rejoined me, he was agitated and his mind was elsewhere.

“KD, I was meaning to ask you…I’ve had a pretty big birthday wish this year, would you like to hear it? Well, I would love nothing better but to be…yours,” I said, without waiting for him to let him stop me from my goals.

He just looked at me quietly; our voices drowned out from the guests all chatting amongst themselves animatedly while stuffing their faces with my cuisine food. He would learn to enjoy this rich, good life. I would be just like my mother. I would get exactly what I wanted in life. Who needed to be a Caster with this kind of admiration from others? The way the Casters acted seemed like they wanted nothing more but to care about others and put their own selves last, even when they were in intense pain.

“Jewel, I cannot grant your wish. I can’t comply with your offer. I…I just need to take care of things first, okay? I’m sorry. I hate doing this, but I also must leave. I…there are many things I need to think over and a lot I need to fix. But I don’t know. It’s so confusing. I must do this alone!” he finished hastily, perhaps sensing the eagerness for my offering for help.

He rose from the table and exited so quickly that others kept glancing at me, wondering if my grandeur ball party was going to be the downfall of my lustrous popular career. But I was taught to always play the part, and I smiled and laughed, informing my oblivious guests that he had gone to concentrate on his studies and would rejoin me in my inner chambers later. This, they cheered and spoke amongst themselves of their own petty affairs. They couldn’t see the unspeakable hatred I felt, the anger and rejection building up.

How dare he! How could he reject me, on my birthday? On my special day? Was my former friend, the weakling who could barely raise a voice to let anyone know how she was feeling; the distant and shy Peridain that lived the lifestyle all of her kind held to the book until KD was in the picture? It was not fair! After the party, I raged in my room, throwing my glass mirror and pearl necklaces that I had accumulated over the years. I ripped several birthday cards in half, and accidentally drowned the new kitten I received from my emotional outburst. Water rose in my bathroom, and forgetting the new kitten’s litter box was in there, the little animal was bloated with water that it could not escape in my rage.

I threw it out to the gardens from my window, my lips curling in disgust at the dirty interior of my once perfectly cleaned bathroom.  This wouldn’t pass by easily or gently. There would be vengeance.  My life was once perfect, but now that I knew where my path lies, I was never going to go back to the soft, pushover way again.  Things would go my way, whether people wanted to give it to me or not.
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Wow! This is amazing! I hate to say it, but Jewel is kind of a bitch. I read the first pararaph and it was like I was instantly hooked! at first I thought Jewel was a good person.. But she totally was not at all what I thought she was like. Poor Izzy. Poor KD. KD was like being forced into a relationship with her. And Jewel only did this to get back at Izzy and Izzy did nothing! Boy if I knew Jewel in real life, she would wished we hadn't met. -.-